just to show that i'm worth it.
the 10th day
Monday, January 25, 2010 @ 6:35 PM
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
As usual.Went to camp on sunday to runaway from all my unhappiness.Crying though still.Trying my best to forget everything and just end my army life for a better life.i dunno what am i thinking,it felt something was missing,but what can i do?i can only be this close to a person though.She don love me anymore,i don see what's the point in telling me all those things she's telling me.The more i think of what she have done to hurt me,the more my heartache.How i wish i can just kill this pain inside me.Friends told me its my fault for not cherishing her,but u change it should be ok.i tried!But at the end,its still the same.Efforts,thoughtfullness,care and concern have been put in.I dont understand what's is wrong that i did.I felt sad.What can i say?I can just pray for her and hope she can get her happiness soon.no matter what happen to me i simply just don care anymore.I just wanna protect.Just now i went to her house downstairs and saw her.I was happy though to at least saw her,see her smile,she's happy,thats all.To think that i love her so much and she treated me like just a stranger.Once i saw her leaving i left and went home.i think that this is what i can really do i guess,Just watch her from a distance and she'll be fine also.Suan ler don say already.i feel that there no more chance for me to get back also,no point talking much already.i sucks.=) guess i'm not worthy to be with anyone anymore.and i'm not worthy of any1 love.
Got back to camp and we had a majong game but it sucks!Started since 11.30 till 4am.phew._.".After that i went to do ferry for my camp.i'm shag!!Recently alot of thinking and things to do,driving,sai kang,problems in my mileage,dunno i will get charge for my case anot =x.Just don think so much now,after i lost everything.After that i chatted with yingying dajie and tell her thanks for helping my fix the errors on the blog and my blogskin.I wanted it to be more gay alright!!Chat about some stuff and she went to sleep.Nevertheless,thanks alot wunying!!=) deeply appreciated it.But can help me do tagbox?hehe=x mayb i'm asking too much.
Came home due to duty off and rest for awhile i guess.Tonight going back to camp due to ferry service in the morning.Somemore 6.30 in the morning=(.Nothing already.guess tml i'll go home for awhile to post again dhen i'll be back to camp for duty :D.
And i got this lyrics.Its kinda touching and nice but try listen to it for a relax and meaningful song :D i'll be putting songs in my blog soon hopefully it has no errors :D.The song title is ''officially missing you'' enjoy!*went out to chill myself*
All i hear is raindrops.
Falling on the rooftop.
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause the pain i feel
It wont go away.
And today i'm officially missing you.
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But i fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you
Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I,I'm officially missing you.
All i do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now i don't even know you at all
I don't know u at all
Well i wish that you would call me right now
So that i could get through to you somehow
But i guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That i,I'm Officially missing you
Well i thought i could just got over you baby
But i see that's something i just can't do
From the way u would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you
Its officially.You know that i'm missing you
Yeah yes
All i hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you.
Loves -Jonjon
