just to show that i'm worth it.
Time to wake up of dreams and face the reality..
Tuesday, February 23, 2010 @ 11:10 PM
Sorry didnt have much time to post recently,due to some family problems and stuff.So yeah these few days was fun and great!First was the barbeque on the 19th feb,With all my mt line brothers and Sergeants,Due to one of them going to leave the force soon,so we made up this barbeque for him,we had alot of fun,jokes,alot of things,then its time to take pictures =)
it may seems i'm abit uncivilised ><
Furball :D
Bro!u're too light la,no kid!
Seaview 1 duty drivers :D
Ah tay and our memories..
AFter this bbq,OH my yam and clayton hosted a bbq on monday night,its at 1ms LOL.In the middle of the duty,i went to visit them at their squadron and they started lol.
I joined in and we have alot of fun that day,eat eat eat!Must run abit more everyday liao.After that,we went to play pingpong for awhile and its fun.Then i went back to boss room to do duty cause its like 5am already.That's one of the night that's unforgettable.
After that day when u left me and never contact me,my heart is still trying,but now.My mind is made up,its time for me to be selfish already,sorry.Time's up.Its over.
PS:Don come and tell me u dunno or what,make a decision and move on.
Love -Jonjon
yayaya everything is all about her la..whatever alright.
Sunday, February 21, 2010 @ 9:00 AM
I'm starting to let go of everything slowly now.Finally,the conclusion is being set as friends,kind happy though but due to some misunderstandings,we quarrell and ended up.Geez,guess this is another hurdle i needa go through haha.March is coming,I'm scared about the trial.Hopefully i wish that nothing happens to me..just trying to be happy as possible.Just wish that everyone beside me,my friends,brothers,camp brothers,and finally to her that made me shed tears,change for her for the sake of being a better guy for her.End up getting dump for another better man.
PS:To the people that is hurt,to the people that's sad,I'll join you guys to be hurt and sad together,thats the only way u guys will share burden with me.
Love -Jonjon
Trying for the better.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010 @ 10:16 PM
I dunno what u're thinking,but all i can say is,i never once that about it,When i look at your blog,Seriously,u wrote those remarks to me..i feel so disappointed u know?I dunno why u still wanna come out if u feel crazy hanging out with that guy?I don understand,i seriously don understand.
Going back to camp,tml is a good day maybe?Or a bad day?Just waiting for her to confirm the date with me tommorrow ba.Hopefully,we'll be able to make it,but after she said those hurting words,I'm not to sure anymore.
PS:All i wanna see is ur face,ur smile,ur laughter,thats all that i wants.
Love -Jonjon
Boring valentine.
Sunday, February 14, 2010 @ 5:37 PM
Today is valentines day,Sad things is i cant get to enjoy it or even rest at home for a little.Duty are so tiring and energy consuming><.Woke up at 7am and get ready for duty like a small kid getting ready for school.Whole day at camp doing nothing but driving and driving and driving.Creeps the hell outta me><.Luckily this year i have just 1 gift :D.Thanks though for making down all the way to my camp to give me the present.Deeply appreciated it.
Before the start of valentines day,i confessed to her about my feelings and stuff,I knew it wont end up like how i believe in or how i think,But i'm trying my best to make you happier and feel that there's somebody there for you always.Though u said that to me,but i'm not dying till i'm trying my best.So i just really hope u can really see them.
I have nothing right now,money,looks,self-confidence,i have totally nothing.But i'm earning back all what i've lost for you.I dunno if i should say this to you,if u cannot do what u said,no point saying it in the first place.Somehow i feel disappointed for the first time,but i dunno what i can do already.I'm just trying hard and guess it wasent good enough.
Bored,will be going out alone i guess to dhouby or something.Dunno whether u'll be free tonight but i just wanna look at you,for a peep also can!Cause i really miss you.
Love -Jonjon
Happy new year..=)
Friday, February 12, 2010 @ 8:54 PM
Happy new year to all my friends and family..=) wish u all enjoy this year's new year and have a happy day..=)
Yesterday was a screwed day ><.Went to gym and ping pong session during my duty ><.After that i was like talking to my medical squadron friends till the dawn of the day lol =x.After that i continued my duty and went home.
Home sweet home :D,nothing to do,lying on the bed seems to think alot though,Aiya i just know that i gonna have a running sessions every off days,anyone wanna join?:D
the more i see myself the more i'm picky with myself,so i decided to do something about it=).
Valentine's coming,what should i do?Plus duty driver for the day D:.Worst of the worst,anyway bought a chocolate dunno who to give?lol..mayb i'll give it to my cleaner in my base ><.Seriously,i dunno why,but i always though about her and stuff,worry that she never take care and stuff,worry she make herself tired out><.Dunno why am i so paranoid,Geeesh,i'll just worry for her in the shadow then.=)
Love -Jonjon
No heading back for me..byebye love.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 @ 8:26 PM
Tired!!how i wish i can just lie on the bed and sleep for the whole light years><.Anyway going to ubin to take some pictures alone.Hope it dont rain god!Hopefully i can think what i'm thinking too and straighten my thinkings out there.I'll be posting later after i get back home.Anything just text me=).
ps: the world is never fair,so try to be fair to yourself=)
Back from ubin yesterday,it was relaxing and stress-free =].But something happened,this guy who's walking on the shore was relaxing with his girlfriend,and suddenly he shouted for nothing.Curiously,of course i went there to see what had happen,he just complained he's in pain and he did not do anything to do,i dunno what to do i call the ambulance straight.So the bunch of us carry him to the boat and ask him to endure it for awhile,ambulance is on its way,his legs turn purple ._. its so scary pls.After that once we reach the shore of sg,we heard the sound of the siren so we quickly carry him into it.Unknowingly,i follow the ambulance car and went to ttsh.Once the procedures are done for the guy,the girlfriend thanked me.I was so happy well think because not always ppl priase me.But i know it myself i've done a good deed :D
I thought alot yesterday when i was at ubin.I was thinking about her,my friend and familys though.I don understand is,why must u come back to tell me it affects you.why must u tell me u regretted it,and u are still with him!?do that make sense?
U're the one that move on,U're the one that hurt me,now what are u trying to accomplish for telling me this?love u back again?How about the times i cherish u,i cried for u..did u even care?U only think of being with him.HOw about me?U left me there for days alone.U still tell me all those things?Seriously,i think i can say things more worst for u,Its just that i don wan to,Since u are with him then go be happy with me,u have ur life,u have move on,u don need to care about me anymore,so just go.
For family and friends,i just knew that somehow i'm always neglecting you all,but i'm trying my best right now to juggle between u all now.Hope u guys understand that its not easy to juggle with this 2 issues.1 more issues though i'm still thinking why i treat her so good.Why am i so concern about her?Why i don wanna see her get hurt?i'm now sure mayb its a affections or crush but i'm trying to find out too.Mayb she wont think the same as me,but i just think that she wont have the same thinking i guess.Well who cares,i just trying not to think negatively,so yeah..Time to get some butts cracking on duties.Wish all my friends a happy new year..=)
Love -Jonjon
Good or bad?
Tuesday, February 9, 2010 @ 4:41 AM
Another meeting with Andrea to cycle,yay!From pasir ris to east coast,its was a long journey,we made a few pitstops and rest in case anyone is tired or their butt hurts,
we stopped at tampines due to the heavy drizzling suddenly,after awhile,we continue to our next stop,Bedok reseviore park.After that,she was so blur that she choose the wrong direction and went the wrong way..bleh=x.So her face changed suddenly and we got serious to reach east coast><.After that we stopped at eunos for some drinks and a cool ice cream,of course she down there eat dao the ice cream dripped out from her mouth LOL.We moved on and continue,we was like keep paddling just to reach our aim.Finally we reach there after the underpass.She was like so relieve and happy.After that we made our way back its was like sian and tired and butt hurts ><.
Total 5 hours spend on this trip D: hope she like it though,though she looks shag and tired,After dinner she told me alot of things about myself i think its right i guess,i'm confused now..trying to get my way outta any maze i meet now..hopefully 1 of this days i can make her more happy ><
Love -Jonjon
City hall marathon =P
Sunday, February 7, 2010 @ 6:00 AM
Today was tiring,didnt get much sleep.Caught a stupid dale that i can buy it at a store zzzz.Anyway it was fun,met out with andrea and she's like a shortie =x.Went to suntec to have some coffee,hope u like it though the drinks =/,and finish the cookies rofl,though u didnt finish earlier.Went to marina walk walk.After that went to mellinia to see the choco shop.Its nice though it does not look like a chocolate shop LOL esplanade.After a nice performance at esplanade by some freelance performers at the small stage,bought a strawberry coated with choco,hope u like it ツ.Went to sakae after that,wa today broke liao =x.Send her home and gone home safe and sound :D.Remember to keep my weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesle safe and sound or i'm gonna kill you ><.
Love -Jonjon
i'll always remember..
Wednesday, February 3, 2010 @ 6:23 AM
I'll always remember the time that's happy,the time that's sad,the time we cry,the time we flare at each other.Its over,nothing to talk about lately.Lastly,i'll always remember how u hurt me.
Love -Jonjon
tired
Monday, February 1, 2010 @ 5:57 AM
In my lifetime i've never been so tired before..I dunno how to move on..I'm laugh with my eyes closed.Anyway just wanna say if anyone needs help,i'll be there for them.Trying to change more so that i can be a better person.
PS:Be happy is what i wants others to feel it,instead of myself.
Love -Jonjon
