no matter how u glue back a broken glass heart it can never be put back to its original place..=)
After what happen today..i realised how much i really love her..even though i said all that harsh words..i tried my best to change for her.I still don understand what i really have done to deserve this..she wanted me to change,i tried my best to be the perfect guy for her,end up,she don even care about how i feel!Army is tough recently too many things to worry about.Dont get much sleep and eat anything recently cause of her.She really made my life fill with colour once,twice,thrice.Just because i never cherish u once,twice its my fault.I'm trying to change for u,talk to u nicely,try not to be jealous.U think i wanna be jealous all day long seeing u with him sms and stuff?It hurts everyday alright.Though i can do nothing i can only wish for ur happiness,i hope that u can find some1 better than me.I'm just a useless piece of crap,a guy who take for granted of your love.I've been thinking too much about u everytime i see my wallet.it really consist of the memories i have with u.Its so hurtful,what i can do?i can only cry to ease my pain,confort myself to sleep everyday.i miss u.i love u.i can only protect u from 1 corner from now on.I wont be there for u.I cant be there for u.Cause i'm not worthy of u.I once told u that i wrote a msg everyday ever since we broke up.Dunno u can see anot but just write it for fun^^.
8th day since we broke up..today u went to ikea with ur friends..last minutes again?i hate it always..but u're always like this..u wont know how hurtful am i.u just think about urself!u just do what u think u want.U know i broke down when i'm having duty?u just simply like to see me get hurt by u time and again!all u think is ur friends,ur family,to u i am nothing at all.Who exactly am i to u?i guess its the end soon.I change and do what u wanted and this is what u show me by saying "u love me".I wan you love i wanna be together with u.I know i hurt u once twice but i'm not gonna hurt u cause i don wanna get hurt too.but everything seems so far from u now.I am tired,i wanna sleep and don wake up forever.U wont know how much i have gone through these 8 days.
loves -Jonjon