just to show that i'm worth it.
Boring valentine.
Sunday, February 14, 2010 @ 5:37 PM
Today is valentines day,Sad things is i cant get to enjoy it or even rest at home for a little.Duty are so tiring and energy consuming><.Woke up at 7am and get ready for duty like a small kid getting ready for school.Whole day at camp doing nothing but driving and driving and driving.Creeps the hell outta me><.Luckily this year i have just 1 gift :D.Thanks though for making down all the way to my camp to give me the present.Deeply appreciated it.
Before the start of valentines day,i confessed to her about my feelings and stuff,I knew it wont end up like how i believe in or how i think,But i'm trying my best to make you happier and feel that there's somebody there for you always.Though u said that to me,but i'm not dying till i'm trying my best.So i just really hope u can really see them.
I have nothing right now,money,looks,self-confidence,i have totally nothing.But i'm earning back all what i've lost for you.I dunno if i should say this to you,if u cannot do what u said,no point saying it in the first place.Somehow i feel disappointed for the first time,but i dunno what i can do already.I'm just trying hard and guess it wasent good enough.
Bored,will be going out alone i guess to dhouby or something.Dunno whether u'll be free tonight but i just wanna look at you,for a peep also can!Cause i really miss you.
Love -Jonjon
